Sicky!

Sorry I have not been posting much. I got sick over the weekend and admittedly I ate more than I should have. So I gained a bit, but at least I'm not 125....again. Thank the Lawd! I feel like I'm snapping out of whatever cold buggy thing I have, so I'm going to go to the gym today. I'll probably go pretty light on myself however because I am still pretty dizzy. I went to see Scream 4 on Friday with the boy, (yes, that's what he surprised me with). :) We are both scary movie buffs and Scream has to be one of my favorites, so it was a very thoughtful surprise all around. :) Anywho, one of the characters, Kirby, played by Hayden Panettiere has really short hair and it is reeeeeeally cute. My mom and I went to see it the following day after I got back into town and she told me I have basically the same shaped face as her. Long story short, I consulted her, the boy, and my roomie and they are all in support of me getting it lopped off. I might post a pic of her today or something. :)
I just want to do something different, and since I'm in college, there is no better time to cut my hair right? Well, I think I'm going to go work out now. Have a wonderful, skinny day lovelies!

120.2!!!

You couldn't imagine how surprised I was when I stepped out of the shower and weighed myself, 120.2! A day early as well! :) I'm happy I finally got down, closer to my goal weight. My next hurdle is 118. Today went fairly well I guess. For breakfast I had 1 low fat peach yogurt cup (140 calories), and a slice of banana walnut bread. I skipped lunch but then the boy and I went out to Shari's for dinner. I didn't completely stuff my face there, so I guess that's good. However, I did have strawberry crepes and two sausage links...bleah. And I also think we are going to taco bell tomorrow after we hit a movie. And I have no idea what we are going to see, he is determined to surprise me. So determined in fact, that he is having me wait in the car when he gets the tickets and then covering my eyes before we enter the actual screening room. Yeah. I'll just kick my own ass at the gym tomorrow morning, no excuses to not go, and I will have a piece of fruit for breakfast. Hopefully that balances it out. Think thin lovelies! <3

Self-control please?

Today ended up going to shit. I doubt I will be 121 tomorrow, a saddening thought. I started out okay, with my usual slice of toast w/ peanut butter and sliced banana on top, then I worked out, and after had a salad for lunch. Well, after my last class something just snapped and I had 3/4 of a pita sandwich (tuna)....then a small frozen yogurt. The pita I could kind of understand but the frozen yogurt, no way in hell. I just feel all bloaty and full of fail now. This was my one break-down this week, no more. At least I worked out today and was good for half of it, I just have to get used to keeping it going. I feel like purging....dunno if I will or not yet, there are people right outside the bathroom. I want to see the numbers go down but I know tomorrow that won't happen. :( Once again, I have to pick myself up and keep going. Maybe I should limit sandwiches to once a week, that's a good idea. Oh, and does anyone have tips for inner thigh exercises? My thighs in general, but especially my inner thighs, have always given me trouble. Stay strong lovelies! <3

Random post-morning class post :)

Well yipeee! I'm close enough to the weight I was before I went all binge-crazy, so I suppose I'm brave enough to post it...122. Holy crap....if I could get to 120, or even better, 119 by Friday I just might scream. So I gotta work super hard! I will work out this morning and not procrastinate it until this afternoon. One more thinspo vid then gym, I'm not letting myself down again. I don't even think he thinks I can do it. I'll show him. :)

I'm Alive!

Okies, so I guess I didn't die from the massive weight gain over this weekend. I'm actually feeling rather optimistic! I lost about 2 pounds already and I worked out today, another 400 calories gone. Today I suppose I didn't eat much. 1/2 a bowl of cereal for breakfast with non-fat milk. Later I had 3/4 of a turkey pita sandwich and a couple bites of his frozen yogurt. A little naughtiness but that was the best I have done in a while. Oh! And I found out exactly how many calories are in those smooothies I have been getting, gawwwd. In other words, enough to make me stop getting them! Of course I hope to lose more tomorrow....120 by the end of the week I am begging! Another point to bring up, I was watching thinspo on youtube last night, and after each vid I read the comments below. People kept mentioning "ana buddies". Eh? Never heard of it, but it sounds nice though. :) And of course, americaneaglelove (aelove for short if that's alright.), thank you once again for your support, I really needed that after how discouraged I was feeling! :) Good night loves! Stay Strong! <3

Eww!

Like I said, I screwed up this weekend. My brain was absent. Well I paid the price for it this morning when I got the courage up to weigh myself. Big, yucky number staring up at me. Nothing I ate this weekend was worth that. All of my hard work down the drain. I guess I just have to slap myself again and get back to work. I'll just have to remember this shit feeling next time I consider eating something. On the bright side I'm not back at my starting weight I guess. Shame on me! I think I should probably get going to the gym before I get hungry. No more food for me tonight. Ugh I'm so frustrated with myself. I'll post what I have eaten today so out of obligation I won't eat any more later, because then I'll have to post that too! :D Today's eats: -1/2 orange -1 slice whole wheat toast w/ peanut butter -1 small strawberry banana soy smoothie Yuck.

More Yuck.

Bleah. Don't even ask me about this weekend, binge city. I ate out with the fam more than once and had to get fast food on the way back to school. Not weighing myself tonight, hell no. I will work out every day this week, no matter how tired I am. No idea what I weigh now, I'm at least 123, I can feel it sticking to me. I'll restrict myself like crazy too. I don't want to feel fat like I do now. I want to feel amazing like last week but even better! No excuses for myself this week though, considering I ate everything that didn't eat me first this weekend. If I don't weigh a crazy amount tomorrow after working out I'll go for 119 by this Friday, at least. Just going to have to tread a very thin line I guess. -americaneaglelove: And I let him use my computer, and he just found it in the search history and got curious! lol But yeah, it was really sweet how concerned he was, and he definitely is a keeper. :) Thanks for your support sweetie!