Heat Exhaustion?

Well hello there peoples! :)

So today I had like barely anything for breakfast, then I went to work out and I did so freaking well. Then I went tanning, but when I got home I became really nauseous and decided it might be from not eating. So I ate a small fruit cup and threw it right the hell up after. So I slept for a while and then had some soup and gatorade, and thats probably around 400 cals. Egad! Then I had a slice of cheese because I got hungry later...So I basically completely undid my workout today but I am still sure I kept it under 1000 cals today. But the problem is I got down to a lower 123 today, then jumped back to 125 after eating and drinking a bunch. I am worried I won't be 120 by the fourth, but I have a week, so I am just going to rehydrate myself tonight and keep my head up and go back in tomorrow...can't wait to finally see 122!

Stay Strong lovelies! <3

Not enough, yet.

Still fluttering at 123, maybe if I don't eat anything but another half of an apple today and work out, maybe I can get to 122, but it's just depressing me to step on the scale and keep seeing the same thing. I have to eat less.
Oh yes, and as added motivation, I have been considering taking ballet lessons either this summer or the next term at school they are available. And I know how tight and unforgiving those leotards are, but how amazing they look on thin people. When I was young I was still fairly chubby and of course, did not look good in them. I am starting to see my ribs...its amazing....and my hip bones and peaking through. But it's not enough, I want more. But for now, it works as good motivation, a little tase of what is to come. I just have to be patient and not screw up in the meantime. I should be going tanning today after I work out, yay! My pale skin does not justice for my flabby body.

Stay strong lovelies! :)

Go away thighs!

123 today, yesterday and today though I have been wavering between 124 and 123. I think I can get down to at least 120 before the fourth, if I can get down any lower though I will be thrilled. My tummy looks a whole lot better, not so poochy. But my thighs are still so horrendous. Anyone have any tips?
I put these jeans on yesterday and my thighs just looked so thick it was depressing. Oh well, once I get to 115 the weight has to come from somewhere, and hopefully by then it will be shed off my thighs. I'm a lot happier now though than I was from two weeks ago. Just gotta keep holding on. :)

Stay strong lovelies! :)

Back in the saddle.

Hey loves! Just finished a killer workout at the gym here in town. Lost an itty bitty amount of weightsince I last posted, but at least it's something, right? Sooo tired...just wanted to update. :) I won't be seeing the boy for a week (or maybe even two), so I want to make as much of a drastic change between now and then. Anywho, I'm looking forward to that. :) I am praying I will be my goal weight by the time of the cruise...if not sooner. I know i will be around a lot of people by the fourth so my goal weight will be....120 by July 4th. I think that's plausible, especially for how much I will be working out now. I just have to focus, keep my eye on the prizze, and realize how much time I have left.

Off to find that scale....

Hey everyone. :) Sorry I haven't been updating lately, dead week and finals week almost killed me, and this week I have been shadowing at the hospital and getting moved out and back into the house (oh joy). Well anywho, I'm still fat, but my mom and I just got memberships to the local gym and we plan on going very regularly. :) I've been trying to lay off the food, and been getting progressively better since I got out of school. Not quite as many temptations here, so it's been fairly easy. I don't know how much I weigh though, i still need to find the scale amongst the stacks of boxes in my room. But I've been saying no food with ease now so at least it's progress.
And of course, the best news for last, I'm going out tomorrow to get a little "push" for my weight loss if you know what i mean. ;)
This week I'll be with the boy at his parent's house while they are gone and maybe I'll go running or something in the neighborhood, since I am pretty sure it will be sunny there. :) I am so focused, nothing is getting in my way, especially because I don't want to be uncomfortable in all those tiny clothes at the end of this summer. :P Again, sorry for the sketchy posting schedule, wish me luck!

Stay Strong lovelies! :)