Waiting it out.

Fat...yeah I know I have gained this break...big whoop. I will start as soon as I get back to school and starve and work out constantly and only eat salads and such. I think this is good for me i am so tired of eating and being full that I can't wait to get back on campus and go to the gym every day and start losing and watching myself shrink instead of watching myself balloon to the point i think i will pop. I can't wait to start changing myself...keeping record of my weight again....hitting the gym and watch the extra me just fall off....I will be skin and bones soon. My ribs will show and I will fit into my 00s again, only better! I can't wait. :)

Break=FAT

Don't want to know weight, although I have a rough idea. I don't think winter break is really good for anyone though!I have promised myself a new start when I get back to school though. I just can't get away from the fast food and sweets and absolutely everything fatty with family around and constantly being on the road. I have been so bad. :( I will make up for it though...I want to be so skinny and feel great in my second level ballet class next term...I will be beautiful. Not even really for him anymore...

Chocolate Thunder from Down Under

I dunno about you, but I think that is about the worst dessert name ever. We went to Outback tonight and I was in front of my mom and bf so I had to eat. Also, the last few days being home have been hard, I have probably gained, hopefully not too much though since I have been trying to not completely gorge myself. I'm going to try and figure out this tread-climber thing my mom has and use it at home, since I know its going to be a lot more accessible than going to the gym every day. Then I'll just try to have salad every time I eat out, pretty simple really, I unfortunately didn't even consider it tonight. :( Minor setback, but I'm going to keep working!

Lofty idea, but I at least want to be able to send some portfolio shots into some agencies this summer. It really is a fantasy, but I would absolutely love it and it's something that will help me work towards my goal and drive me, so whatever works right?

Love you all, stay strong! <3

Oh god...

I'm humoring the people around me by eating...I hate it...I feel so full....

But...I did just watch the VS fashion show and I am never eating again. lol If you are ever feeling like you might want to eat....just watch that and you will want to exercise for hours.

Bad Myself!

I'm a failure. All sorts of bad shit today...I need to relearn how to control myself when the bf comes over, I was 135.6 today though. Soon though right? I just have to get through finals which is the bad part of it. Wish my luck I hope I haven't gained back everything I have lost.

Stay strong lovelies!

Quick Post.

Horrible night, taco bell and ice cream. Bad me. Rest of the day was very good though. I want to be so skinny it is killing me! Bla! I promise I will be. :) Went to go see Breaking Dawn tonight, Bella's bones were so beautiful....

I lost weight? Whaa?

Yay! I worked out, 400 calories down the drain. I waited long enough so I'm not hungry, and I had a bowl of special k for breakfast, nothing else. :) And now I'm 136.0. Making progress feels good, even if I do want to be lower, at least I'm getting there.

Stay strong lovelies!